A few years after the end of the war, I came back to Berlin, my first scores under my arm. In the meantime, things had been cleared up, reconstruction had begun, the theatres and orchestras were now playing the works that had been banned under the dictatorship or that had mainly been written elsewhere during this phase.
People were trying to find their way. I tried to get a foothold, but it failed, I was too weak, I was unable, I knew too little. I realised it and left again, but since then I have always tried to get to know Berlin, that is, its audience, whose recognition must have been as important to me as London is to the British, or Paris to the French. And sometimes I was lucky, other times it went wrong, then I tried again, like a lover who refuses to be rejected.
Time and again I have lived incognito in Berlin for many months, have loyal friends there, old and young. Even after the city was divided into two parts, the metropolitan impetus can still be felt, the energy, the speed, the ambition. Even the dialect is one that only metropolises can produce. I feel at home in Berlin, I love this city, I fear and suffer with it. I can't hide the fact that I sometimes try to imagine how the two parts of the city might one day come together again in a completely natural, self-evident way. A utopia.
Under permanent threat, held in ever new political-economic tension, subjected to the greatest difficulties, beats this battered but courageous metropolitan heart, made of three million courageous metropolitan hearts, of three million individuals who demand their right to a fulfilled life, to peace, to a happy future.
(First printed in: Eberhard Diepgen (ed.): 750 Jahre Berlin. Anmerkungen, Erinnerungen,
Betrachtungen, Berlin 1987, pp 132 - 134). Translated by M. Kerstan)